PUA? I have no idea what you're talking about. *couKINOgh* ;)and HAH! I knew you were a PUA, any PUA can sniff another out. Right from the begining on your first post I knew . Can't hide that fact from me
Yeah, that's the problem with learning the game too early. Everything becomes so mechanical that you wonder what is real and what is the results of pure skill. And, after awhile, you kinda run through the patterns without thinking.This has been happening even before Aya. I don't know anymore. I feel that everytime I game, the void I feel inside expands.
Then again, you could have worse problems. You could be a AFC listening to emo and wishing that some girl, ANY girl, would notice you.
The thing is, we haven't really established whether you're really in love with Aya. I think you're going through a lot of emotional stress and Aya has become your relationship focal point for it, even though she's really not the source of it. I've done that too, and for me, it was terrible. I didn't have control over my feelings and hated myself.I'm never suppose to have any feelings towards girls.
The "easy" solution, of course, is to have casual, honest friendship with some females. People that you've already told yourself "no way I'm going to sarge" them. The other thing is, you gotta accept that no relationship or possible relationship is going to fill the need to have lots of good male and female friends. You crave conversation; you crave interaction; you crave being around interesting, fun people. Your activities