emm.. hi guys, some of you might have noticed me giving out reponses in this thread before, but tonight i juz wanna share some of my experiences with all of you. It's more like a long-distance relationship. I got to know this girl about 3 years ago while i was studying in the UK. at first, i thought it was never gonna work out 'cause of the age difference (she is 4 years older than me, eventhough she looks pretty much younger than her age

) so, after the first encounter, i just kept the feelings to myself. at that moment, i know that even if i pursue the matter any further, she might have said no herself (at least that was what i thought

) the fact that she's older and also 'high class' girl (i know this from her friends); driving around in a posh car, wearing high-end brand clothes, spending time in classy coffee shops on weekends (i can't imagine being able to do the same) however, i can't seem to get her out of my mind. emm.. without the intention of actually asking her out, i started to ask people around her about herself. god! she has got a boyfriend

that was it for me. i decided to try to stop thinking about her. until about 2 months later, 10000 miles away from where we first met up, i met her again. It's funny how things work eh? i took the chance to get her contacts by giving her reasons that i might be of interest in such activity in the future (kinda feel guilty giving out the false reason just to get her email

) back in the uk, couple of months after that, i got an email from her (it was a very short 'keeping in touch' email) i was very excited. then we started writing to each other for almost 3 months. from a once-a-week mail it turned out to be every alternate days. we shared lots of thoughts and day to day experiences. to keep up with her 'world' i did lots of 'homework' on things like the latest fashion in market, good hangout places in big cities lke where she was living in and of course about other things that she likes. at this point, i still didn't get the chance to meet her, but it felt like i've known her since forever. It came to the point where i felt like telling her about the feelings i've had towards her, but as expected, i never had the courage to do so. Things keep going as normal until she stopped sending me mail for almost 2 weeks. i got very anxious. lots of thoughts came to mind. emm.. she might be busy with her boyfriend (the thing i avoid asking or writing about in my mail to her) or her study maybe. after 3 unreplied mail, i stopped writing. i must be just one of her ordinary friend, so, i thought that was it. then, the worst came, an email from her telling she was gonna go back to her home country for good in a month time, and she said she might not be able to write as usual because she's gonna be busy with the packing and other arrangements to go back. i was very upset with the news. there were mixed feelings, i felt sad and worried that i will never had the chance to see her again. it took me a while to realise that she was really gonna dissapear from my life and i've got to do something about it. 3 weeks left and i did the unthinkable. i took a week off from my study and fly to her place. i emailed her before hand that i was gonna wait for her at her college (i didn't have her house address

and i never asked for it

) i waited until almost midnight (even the security guard asked me to wait outside 'cause they were closing the lounge). then, when i was about to give up waiting and go look for a cab, she came. she was surprised and apologized saying that she just read the mail half an hour before. we went for a light supper and i told her how i felt about her. i ended up staying at her place for the whole week helping her with the packing and she came over to mine for the last 2 weeks before she departed for home. emm.. i'm sure as far as all of us are aware, it took efforts and courage to get to the one you love. sometimes, it takes unthinkable action for the unthinkable to happen. my small chapter is very much a summary, i'm sure everybody's relationship is complex on its own. you'll never know what lies ahead for you until you put some courage to find out. so.. gambatene..!!