Everyone, Thank you for your support.
I'd like to say that I was deeply touch by all your words through these past serveral days. But I decided that I must abandoned this silly fantasy of mine before it turns into something worst. I won't be looking for her tommorrow. Everyday is hurting me more and the pain is starting to get unbearable. I have to get back on track and focus on my college academics. It pains me to say this but I don't think I'll write here anymore. I'll be putting my laptop on the side and replace them with text books.
Before I go, I would like to say several things.
Cloud, your support for me has been unmatched. I wish I could wish you good luck on monday in person.
Jeremiah, I would like to totally thank you. Your words have touched me time and time again. I was exactly like you for 5 years. But here I am 17 and I learned what it is to live life. Its our relationships with other people and to have fun expeirences with them. It was a big relieve to me that I can spice up any conversations now with any person I meet everyday. You should give it a try, you might find it fun.
pwner4once, thank you for not taking me as a stalker
Thank you for supporting me through out my times of uncertainty.
genki_guy thank you for opening my eyes to reality, your post was a real reality check for me.
If I forgot anyone, feel free to talk some smack about me for forgetting to thank you >.< Which is why I'm about to say, I thank everyone else who is not included on this list. Though I might not know your faces, I know IRL we all would have been best of friends.
My 18th birthday is next week, what should i wish for?
Good Luck everyone, May True Love come to all of you.